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May. 16th, 2009 | 10:01 pm

i'm sure you're heard this shit, right?

Always Strapped - Birdman Ft. Lil Wayne

nevermind my excitement - lil wayne's verse is boring (it just sounds good) and birdman's verse is excellent. i wish they hadnt opened the track up with that garbage - i'd rather hear about cars than listen to a black man call me a 'bitch' repeatedly.

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May. 16th, 2009 | 05:09 pm

So the deal is that I'm being called a race traitor by a girl I barely ever spoke to in high school, a girl that never knew me and still doesn't know me. She called me this because, after finding out that a predominantly white contingent of our graduating class has planned a separate reunion, I refused to write them off as racists and snobs. Here's the email I sent to the stupid heifer:
Subject: at our reunion

Don't talk to me or acknowledge me whatsoever - I'll do the same for you.

You make me sad, sad, sad. Did you know that I go to Howard, the number 1 black school in America? I'm getting a masters' degree in Art. Felicia Rashad, Thurgood Marshall, and Taraji P. Henderson all graduated from Howard. My most serious relationship was with a black man - I was pregant for a short while even, thought I was gonna have a beautiful chocolate family. At Howard, there are so many different types of people there and its been such a wonderful experience to be accepted and loved by all of them regardless of how many white friends I have had in the past or whatever music I like or clothes that I wear. When you talk the way you do, you make me so happy to be out of high school. We were never friends in high school, I always thought of you as a bully, and I was hoping that you'd changed over the past ten years and that maybe we could really get to know each other and maybe start being friends.

I've changed my mind now, you're just as immature and short-sighted as you were when you were 15 and teasing me in the cafeteria for being myself. Were you jealous that I was brave enough to do what I wanted? I don't have to listen to your ridiculous garbage and I know that you're wrong about me. I know more about what it means to be black than you will EVER know. I am more connected to my people and my heritage than you will EVER dream of being. You should be ashamed of yourself.


The truth is that I barely remember her from high school. Honestly. All I remember about her was that I thought she was pretty (she still is) and that she always had her hair done and she was really mean and got suspended for fighting alot. I realize that she grew up without her natural father and wasn't involved in any extra-curricular activities in school: no band, no ROTC, no clubs. I also think that she got beaten by her mom alot. It makes me sad to see a black woman act out like she does, it makes me angry to see how economic hardship can breed jealousy and divide communities. Why in the world do black people put so much pressure on each other to conform to the ridiculous stereotypes created by white people? It's amazing to me, absolutely amazing. And of course I understand that she's not entirely reacting to me - she's reacting to her past and her present situation. She's never left Mississippi. She's a single mom and I think she dropped out of cosmetology school. I have to understand that when she starts going on and on about how I was "lame" in high school and how she doesn't care if I come to the reunion or not because she's sure she "aint missin' shit", that really she's just hurting when she sees my facebook page full of colleges and traveling and lovers and friends and experiences. I'm really sad for her, I really am. And I'm done with class reunions - like Shun said, this is my first and my last.

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May. 12th, 2009 | 02:47 pm

so the rain has finally chilled out and we've been planting like crazy on the farm - lettuce, chard, me' quing choi (tiny bok choi), LOTS of lettuces, onions, basil, tomatillos. the palettes outside of the greenhouse are overrun with stuff to plant as well - my favorite is the lime basil; our CSA customers are so lucky!

i've taken a longer lunch break than i'd planned - i usually give myself a half hour, and now i'm at 45 minutes. naughty!

it did rain last night, all night, and the ground sucks. i'm talking slippery muddy, but we're still planting. time to finish up these lettuces before I head out to the farmer potluck in beautiful loudoun county.

have i told you how happy i am to be done with school and farming again?
my vacation home is gonna be the best - i'm gonna bring pepper plants for my grandmother and lots of hugs for everyone else.

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May. 9th, 2009 | 05:44 pm

the weather has finally lightened up - the past few days only had light showers and yesterday was completely free of rain during the day. it did rain last night, or early this morning (not quite sure), which made it far to wet to plant or work outside at all, really. The greenhouse was hot as fuck, so I spent today weeding snow peas and cabbage, two vegetables I that I'm very much looking foward to eating, same with sweet onions. rainy weather does make for an abundance of wind, and there's no way I'll complain about a breeze.

i've been feeling great lately, since i'm done with school and only committed to PVF. I am very tired these days though, and I think that its because of my period. this months' cycle has been really intense physically and emotionally - the thought of my parents not being at my art opening has been bringing me to tears, and I've had the worst time of getting out of bed in the AM.

i did, however, recieve the best email today:


I don't want to work for paper--
money or phds

I want to paint.

I want you to hold me in your pocket
when i make prints

happy birthday

my ego is bullshit

i love your art
i think your beautiful
and strong
and smart
and wonderful

if that's not love i don't know what is

jn = jenell nyberg = bok choy

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May. 4th, 2009 | 08:53 am

Its hard to roll my eyes at all this 'swine flu' hysteria when there have been two cases at the University of Maryland and now one case at Howard. Good thing my final final is tonight. Party on!

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May. 3rd, 2009 | 02:55 pm

It's rainy today. Not heavy, but it hasn't let up since last night, just a steady downfall. I worked for a little while this morning in the greenhouse, spotting lettuce. The place was so incredibly humid and it seemed like someone had just watered all the flats. Doing greenhouse work was pretty cumbersome, considering how muddy I felt (as opposed to dirty, which I can work through without a problem). There was just water everywhere, and too much of it. Water was dripping from the lettuce roots, the soil in the bin was clumped together like someone added way too much water to it, which made me grumble. Spotting lettuce was annoying instead of relaxing - the roots kept sticking to my fingers and wouldn't stay in the soil. I turned my one flat of lettuce seedlings into 5 flats of lettuce seedlings, finishing up all the jamai (yummy delicate and rich red lettuce - eat it) and started looking forward to planting and eating them one day. After shaking the mud from my hands for the millionth time and cursing whoever overwatered everything, I decided to pack it in and go grocery shopping, pay my rent, and vacuum my floor. On my way home I stopped in the hoop house and cut some salad and spinach - I forgot to get cherry tomatoes at the grocery store, but good greens don't need much. I did get two gigantic red peppers and some hummus, so this salad will be fierce, no doubt. I also bought some air freshener, but I got it from the dollar store and it smells like a cheap hotel. Its been a lazy Sunday, and I'm glad for it. Now I just gotta finish this presentation for my Trends and Ideas in African American Art final and then I will be free to focus on my show and our farm. I planted so much parsley yesterday - easily 500 plants, knocking on 600. There are still about 300 left to plant and I can knock that out in an hour and a half. Yesterday I gave my sister some red cross lettuces (oh so yummy red lettuce - EAT IT) and cilantro for her yard. The other day I gave a date a rosemary plant. The tomatoes are getting big and Alyssa will be home soon, Stephen too.

Farming season, ready? set?

I love my job.

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Apr. 23rd, 2009 | 10:16 pm

I got it! I'm gonna be apart of a group show called "Sculpting Time", that's showing at the Visual Arts Center in Rockville, MD, May 21 - July 26th!


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Apr. 22nd, 2009 | 12:39 pm

I have a meeting with a gallery director tomorrow.


Please, please, say prayers, light candles, offer tobacco to the spirits, do whatever you do to give me some good juju!

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Apr. 19th, 2009 | 10:06 am

American Apparel is selling scrunchies now.

There are some things that should stay in the past, for real.

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Apr. 15th, 2009 | 10:51 pm

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